I feel that it is not my Job to do what so many others are doing and in a way, that far exceeds anything, I could do. So I am adding some links below that you may find of Interest if you wish to pursue this Path in more detail and with better Understanding.
Links that may be of Interest:-
1st and without whom none of this, may have been Possible, My Beloved, Beautiful Gem of a Wife, Best Friend and Partner, Karin Bain .
N.B. There are Many sites out there and a few of which I occasionally access. However even though they may suit my feelings at times when I am attracted to them I am unsure if they will be right for others. My view has always been that if you find this, it is because it is correct at this time for You!